Bipolar, Mental Health, Suicide

Poem – Bipolar please leave us be

A poem I just wrote on my feelings of the effects of bipolar on my loved ones and my life. I don't see it as a blessing. It's devastating. Bipolar please set us free. Countless times I've rebuilt my life Bipolar please leave us be You creep back in unexpected, uninvited Battles for all to… Continue reading Poem – Bipolar please leave us be

ADHD, Bipolar, Grief, Hope, Mental Health, Mental Health Treatment, Recovery, Social Media, Suicide

TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.

To say I'm very disappointed is an absolute understatement. Devastated. I haven't tried to take my own life for a few years now and thought all was in control, however this weekend it all exploded and I ended up in A&E for emergency physical treatment. **** I have decided to take out the explicit content originally… Continue reading TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.

Bipolar, Mental Health, Mental Health Treatment, Suicide

TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….

The following writing is a journal entry I wrote at 4am during a crisis in 2014.  It transpired I was experiencing a mixed episode diagnosed very soon after this in hospital (I've already blogged about it here). I thought I'd posted this already, just realised I hadn't, so thought I would. I find it strange reading… Continue reading TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….

Inspirational, Mental Health, Recovery, Suicide

Allie Brosh – On depression and life. Brilliant blogger and writer.

I just want to dedicate a blog post to the fabulous Allie Brosh. Her blog is here Many of you may have heard of her - she's pretty well known and funny as hell. The drawing in the featured image is hers and she draws like this throughout her content. If you ever want the best… Continue reading Allie Brosh – On depression and life. Brilliant blogger and writer.

Mental Health, Suicide

A really shit week – TRIGGER (suicide)

If you've read my previous posts you'll know that mental illness is in my family. For the last year or so my 13 year old has been self harming through cutting her arms. She has a diagnosis of ADHD. On Friday, I found weed and tobacco in my 13 year olds bedroom. Then on Sunday… Continue reading A really shit week – TRIGGER (suicide)

Mental Health, Mental Health Nursing, Mental Health Treatment

On being a Mental Health Nurse ❤️

Having a diagnosis of bipolar affective disorder and being a mental health nurse comes with challenges. Without bipolar it does anyway. I went into nursing because of my constant exposure to mental illness in my family, in me and some of my friends. I wanted, and want, to make a difference. To put my experience… Continue reading On being a Mental Health Nurse ❤️

Bipolar, Grief, Maternal deprivation, Mental Health

This child…..

This is a child living through trauma. You wouldn't have known. She smiled at everyone and wanted acceptance. This child's first overdose was at 18 months old. This child's mother had a mental illness and struggled and felt isolated. She didn't realise her daughter would take that first unexpected climb to the Ativan of hers… Continue reading This child…..

Mental Health, Mental Health Treatment, Recovery, Suicide

Depression ‘advice’….

People with depression (or any mental illness for that matter) need to be heard. Whilst a variety of symptoms are collectively shared, people are individuals. How they experience depression is individual. Blanket advice will not, therefore, help everyone. At least not in the most severe cases. This is the most important thought to keep in… Continue reading Depression ‘advice’….

Bipolar Mixed Episode

TRIGGER: Reality of a manic episode with mixed features…

Before this most recent severe depression (and lesser episodes/cycling in between) I had a manic episode with mixed features which landed me my first acute admission to a psychiatric hospital. It was the most terrifying moment of my life. I'd never had one before and it came on with no warning like a light switch had been… Continue reading TRIGGER: Reality of a manic episode with mixed features…