A poem I just wrote on my feelings of the effects of bipolar on my loved ones and my life. I don't see it as a blessing. It's devastating. Bipolar please set us free. Countless times I've rebuilt my life Bipolar please leave us be You creep back in unexpected, uninvited Battles for all to… Continue reading Poem – Bipolar please leave us be
To say I'm very disappointed is an absolute understatement. Devastated. I haven't tried to take my own life for a few years now and thought all was in control, however this weekend it all exploded and I ended up in A&E for emergency physical treatment. **** I have decided to take out the explicit content originally… Continue reading TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.
The following writing is a journal entry I wrote at 4am during a crisis in 2014. It transpired I was experiencing a mixed episode diagnosed very soon after this in hospital (I've already blogged about it here). I thought I'd posted this already, just realised I hadn't, so thought I would. I find it strange reading… Continue reading TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….
The point of this post is to provide some insight into some of my bipolar high antics (hypomania/mania), including spending sprees and behaviour (at home and in hospital) that I can now laugh at. They were the pleasurable highs at the time. Important to note: I'm in no way trivialising Bipolar. It has nearly killed… Continue reading Tales of Bipolar Hypomania/Mania
I just want to dedicate a blog post to the fabulous Allie Brosh. Her blog is here Many of you may have heard of her - she's pretty well known and funny as hell. The drawing in the featured image is hers and she draws like this throughout her content. If you ever want the best… Continue reading Allie Brosh – On depression and life. Brilliant blogger and writer.
This is my very dear friend Amy, diagnosed with what used to be referred to as borderline personality disorder and now relabelled as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD). I'm not keen on either of these terms due to the feeling that something is wrong with your personality, but that's another blog sometime...) Amy had help… Continue reading Reality of suffering from #EUPD #Trauma #Stigma #BPD
People with depression (or any mental illness for that matter) need to be heard. Whilst a variety of symptoms are collectively shared, people are individuals. How they experience depression is individual. Blanket advice will not, therefore, help everyone. At least not in the most severe cases. This is the most important thought to keep in… Continue reading Depression ‘advice’….
Before this most recent severe depression (and lesser episodes/cycling in between) I had a manic episode with mixed features which landed me my first acute admission to a psychiatric hospital. It was the most terrifying moment of my life. I'd never had one before and it came on with no warning like a light switch had been… Continue reading TRIGGER: Reality of a manic episode with mixed features…
Well here I am now in 2017 aiming to pick up the blog that never was... oppsie! This is the thing I have trouble with a lot - starting things and not finishing them. Much has happened since I wrote my first post in 2013. At that time I was forced (by myself) to take… Continue reading My journey through uni and a bloody bipolar diagnosis….