Bipolar, Mental Health, Suicide

Poem – Bipolar please leave us be

A poem I just wrote on my feelings of the effects of bipolar on my loved ones and my life. I don't see it as a blessing. It's devastating. Bipolar please set us free. Countless times I've rebuilt my life Bipolar please leave us be You creep back in unexpected, uninvited Battles for all to… Continue reading Poem – Bipolar please leave us be

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ADHD, Bipolar, Grief, Hope, Mental Health, Mental Health Treatment, Recovery, Social Media, Suicide

TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.

To say I'm very disappointed is an absolute understatement. Devastated. I haven't tried to take my own life for a few years now and thought all was in control, however this weekend it all exploded and I ended up in A&E for emergency physical treatment. **** I have decided to take out the explicit content originally… Continue reading TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.

Bipolar, Mental Health, Mental Health Treatment, Suicide

TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….

The following writing is a journal entry I wrote at 4am during a crisis in 2014.  It transpired I was experiencing a mixed episode diagnosed very soon after this in hospital (I've already blogged about it here). I thought I'd posted this already, just realised I hadn't, so thought I would. I find it strange reading… Continue reading TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….

Bipolar, Hypomania, Mania, Mental Health, Mental Health Treatment

Tales of Bipolar Hypomania/Mania

The point of this post is to provide some insight into some of my bipolar high antics (hypomania/mania), including spending sprees and behaviour (at home and in hospital) that I can now laugh at. They were the pleasurable highs at the time. Important to note: I'm in no way trivialising Bipolar. It has nearly killed… Continue reading Tales of Bipolar Hypomania/Mania

Bipolar, Grief, Maternal deprivation, Mental Health

This child…..

This is a child living through trauma. You wouldn't have known. She smiled at everyone and wanted acceptance. This child's first overdose was at 18 months old. This child's mother had a mental illness and struggled and felt isolated. She didn't realise her daughter would take that first unexpected climb to the Ativan of hers… Continue reading This child…..