A poem I just wrote on my feelings of the effects of bipolar on my loved ones and my life. I don't see it as a blessing. It's devastating. Bipolar please set us free. Countless times I've rebuilt my life Bipolar please leave us be You creep back in unexpected, uninvited Battles for all to… Continue reading Poem – Bipolar please leave us be
To say I'm very disappointed is an absolute understatement. Devastated. I haven't tried to take my own life for a few years now and thought all was in control, however this weekend it all exploded and I ended up in A&E for emergency physical treatment. **** I have decided to take out the explicit content originally… Continue reading TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.
The following writing is a journal entry I wrote at 4am during a crisis in 2014. It transpired I was experiencing a mixed episode diagnosed very soon after this in hospital (I've already blogged about it here). I thought I'd posted this already, just realised I hadn't, so thought I would. I find it strange reading… Continue reading TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….
The point of this post is to provide some insight into some of my bipolar high antics (hypomania/mania), including spending sprees and behaviour (at home and in hospital) that I can now laugh at. They were the pleasurable highs at the time. Important to note: I'm in no way trivialising Bipolar. It has nearly killed… Continue reading Tales of Bipolar Hypomania/Mania
This is a child living through trauma. You wouldn't have known. She smiled at everyone and wanted acceptance. This child's first overdose was at 18 months old. This child's mother had a mental illness and struggled and felt isolated. She didn't realise her daughter would take that first unexpected climb to the Ativan of hers… Continue reading This child…..
People with depression (or any mental illness for that matter) need to be heard. Whilst a variety of symptoms are collectively shared, people are individuals. How they experience depression is individual. Blanket advice will not, therefore, help everyone. At least not in the most severe cases. This is the most important thought to keep in… Continue reading Depression ‘advice’….
Before this most recent severe depression (and lesser episodes/cycling in between) I had a manic episode with mixed features which landed me my first acute admission to a psychiatric hospital. It was the most terrifying moment of my life. I'd never had one before and it came on with no warning like a light switch had been… Continue reading TRIGGER: Reality of a manic episode with mixed features…
Well here I am now in 2017 aiming to pick up the blog that never was... oppsie! This is the thing I have trouble with a lot - starting things and not finishing them. Much has happened since I wrote my first post in 2013. At that time I was forced (by myself) to take… Continue reading My journey through uni and a bloody bipolar diagnosis….
Or was there?! I set this site up ages ago when I was doing pretty well and feeling hopeful! ;I thought I'd start up my own blog of my journey in mental health. It would be cathartic and a place to write my feelings at the time. This would be useful because I have an… Continue reading And then there was hope?…