This blog entry marks the beginning of my effort to fiercely stand up for and defend those of us who are ridiculed and/or invalidated when we see our mental health problems as an illness. We're categorically told we're wrong. There's no evidence. No validity. Psychiatry is all evil etc etc. It's 'just a label'. And… Continue reading Bipolar is “not an illness“, all psychiatry is bad….
For the time being this post is going to be relatively shorter (still long now I’ve typed out 😂) than I intend. I’ll be returning at some point when I have more time. Anyway, here is the history of Bipolar Affective Disorder or dis-ease, what it is and what it isn’t and a bit about the stuff… Continue reading The History of Bipolar Affective Disorder, (inc. a bit of General Mental Health Problems), and how it’s not “Just” Normal Distress, Mood or Human Emotion…
A poem I just wrote on my feelings of the effects of bipolar on my loved ones and my life. I don't see it as a blessing. It's devastating. Bipolar please set us free. Countless times I've rebuilt my life Bipolar please leave us be You creep back in unexpected, uninvited Battles for all to… Continue reading Poem – Bipolar please leave us be
To say I'm very disappointed is an absolute understatement. Devastated. I haven't tried to take my own life for a few years now and thought all was in control, however this weekend it all exploded and I ended up in A&E for emergency physical treatment. **** I have decided to take out the explicit content originally… Continue reading TRIGGER: Suicide attempt at weekend and making sense of it.
The following writing is a journal entry I wrote at 4am during a crisis in 2014. It transpired I was experiencing a mixed episode diagnosed very soon after this in hospital (I've already blogged about it here). I thought I'd posted this already, just realised I hadn't, so thought I would. I find it strange reading… Continue reading TRIGGER: Deciding to live is a very difficult thing….
The point of this post is to provide some insight into some of my bipolar high antics (hypomania/mania), including spending sprees and behaviour (at home and in hospital) that I can now laugh at. They were the pleasurable highs at the time. Important to note: I'm in no way trivialising Bipolar. It has nearly killed… Continue reading Tales of Bipolar Hypomania/Mania
What a day 😄 I've finally got the help I need - the missing puzzle piece that my GP and I have been fighting for. I was diagnosed with ADHD over a year ago by a well known private educational psychologist (specialist in ADHD), however she can only diagnose and not treat. So although I've… Continue reading Finally some ADHD treatment on the horizon 😀
This is a child living through trauma. You wouldn't have known. She smiled at everyone and wanted acceptance. This child's first overdose was at 18 months old. This child's mother had a mental illness and struggled and felt isolated. She didn't realise her daughter would take that first unexpected climb to the Ativan of hers… Continue reading This child…..
Well here I am now in 2017 aiming to pick up the blog that never was... oppsie! This is the thing I have trouble with a lot - starting things and not finishing them. Much has happened since I wrote my first post in 2013. At that time I was forced (by myself) to take… Continue reading My journey through uni and a bloody bipolar diagnosis….